“So, I am always real with you. Today is no different. If I haven’t scared you with the horrific way I look rolling out of bed sleeping with my sweater and work out pants on…I am on a balcony trying to get some fresh air and taking advice of friends to just breathe. I have a pounding headache and woke up from intermittently sleeping and having nightmares about the evils of the world.
And yet,I am in beautiful Southern California courtesy of Warner Brothers who have been exceptional to work with in every aspect. Turns out they are like the fairy GodMother for a regular woman who has kids, a murder trial for her beloved and dear friend and am honestly exhausted.
I don’t like whining and I believe in the power of recognizing blessings even when the chips are down.
I wanted to support everyone who made this movie representing real veteran families, but I didn’t think I had the energy to show up at the Oscars,let alone be presentable. So, I find myself in a surreal position…like Cinderella who scrubs the floors but has a fairy Godmother (Warner Brothers) who got me on a plane and had a dress and jewelry and even the shoes and spanx waiting for me…
And so it is. I am here. To represent my husband, military families and the beautiful people who put more than they had to to make this movie happen. I have a red eye flight scheduled to get me back for the trial on Monday morning. I am praying the impending ice storm in Texas doesn’t inhibit a safe trip home.
I hope I look better for the evening tonight. I am blessed to have my beautiful loving sister with me to hold my hand and dry my tears from what is sure to be an emotional evening.
It’s by the Grace of God and the support of people like you who literally give me the energy to get out of bed each day and see the beauty through the ashes of my life.
I hope the same for all of you. We all struggle and we all have to find the strength to fight another day. I know I am not alone. The details may be different but our stories of fighting on, finding the strength to help ourselves and accepting the help of others when we can … Our constant fight to get on a path to renewal is always common ground – it’s the human condition.